carving itself again at 7:41 PM
posts from years back
posts when i was working in ICA
posts when i was still in singapore
hahaha
it's quite interesting looking at those posts
how much i've changed
even my writing style has changed
indeed i'm getting older
i was looking at the period when i was working
how was it possible that i could stay in that place for the time i've been there?
it's just the same thing day in day out
wake up, wash up, put on my work pants i ironed the night before....while the top hangs in another bag
take 3 buses to work
tap in to work, check out my duty allocation, collect my chops
put on my full uniform
and get ready to start my day (or night)
i realised i was turning into one of my colleagues
there was a lot of negative energy around me
i diddn't think there was much social mingling unlike those people working in offices
cos most of the time you're alone in a booth
and i don't really strike up conversations with the customers
time for meals was ridiculously short
the reason why i never sleep at any of the night shifts was because the 1st time i tried to take a rest in one of my night shifts...i got chased away by people
i had nicely laid out the sleeping bag on one of the bunker beds
almost about to lie down
when someone came up to me and told me that was her space...
in a "that's my rest space...go away" sort of way
i must say i felt really terrible that day (or night)
i felt sad....i diddn't want to work there
i felt like a victim
and i did not belong there
from then on i never slept on ANY of my night shifts
i would drag a chair in front of my locker
and sit in front of it....sometimes reading....sometimes eating....sometimes just staring into space
while most of the rest are sleeping...i could hear the air-con....and the occassional opening of doors
come to think of it, it forms such a sad sight
hahahhaha!
there are other occasions where i would feel like a racial victim
it diddnt feel good
pisses me off
my goodness.....
i think the only thing that kept me staying there was the constant thought that i will not be there in time to come
but good thing i was able to work in the cargo section for my last few months
the people are nicer there it seems
it was happier there
well i learnt a lot there
from work life to how people acted in the 'real' world
in fact i must say it was good experience....it made me cherish education
hahaha......
although i know i'm gonna be returning to the 'real' world again after i graduate here
oh well.....it still amazes me how long i stayed there...